Time check : 2.49AM 

I've been up for close to an hour now. I notice a pattern in my sleeping patterns; more of my waking up pattern (?)

*Hives attack and guilt of procrastinated work are the main reasons that will trigger my alarm clock in my brain to be up around this time. Which means, by right, I am, to be preparing for my FYP slides. But here I am distracted. It's not easy to concentrate when you are scratching all over the body :(

On times like this, I wish for someone to be up to chat with me. Even online. 

This is not something I want to tweet about. It makes me feel like a vulnerable weakling to whine about this when there are many people out there suffering from fate worse than mine, at this hour. Yet, I need an avenue to express the pain I'm going through. Pretty depressing, actually. Blogging is different though. My identity is kept a secret here, hence.

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* Symptoms of hives

    Symptoms of hives include:

• Raised circular weals appear that look like mosquito bites.
• The weals are red on the outer rim and white in the centre.
• Localised itching is present.
• An individual weal has a lifespan of around 24 hours or less.
• The weals appear in batches or clusters.
• One batch fades away as a new batch appears.
• The rash may last for days or weeks

Diagnosis methods for hives

Hives can be commonly mistaken for insect bites or some other types of skin rashes. Diagnosis methods can include:

              Medical history
              Physical examination
              Blood tests
              Allergy tests, such as skin prick tests
              Elimination diet, under medical supervision, to identify the allergen if certain foods are suspected.

Treatment options for hives

For most people, each attack of hives will build in severity and intensity, if their sensitive immune system is repeatedly exposed to the same trigger. Avoiding the known trigger is an important management technique. Treatment for severe or recurring hives may include:
              Checking that the rash isn’t caused by an underlying disorder
              Medications, such as antihistamines and corticosteroids, to reduce the immune system response
              Avoidance of known triggers
              Avoidance of factors that exacerbate the condition – such as sunshine, heat and hot showers.

http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/bhcv2/bhcarticles.nsf/pages/Hives_explained?open

I hate being angry

I hate being angry.
It takes the seconds, minutes, hours (hopefully never, days) of happiness.
And it's tiring to frown. To avoid talking to the person you are angry with. To carry on the day pretending that it doesn't affect you one bit. When in actual fact, deep inside, you are screaming to say something out.. maybe "Sorry!"

I'm going through this notion. Been cooped up in my room except for lunch and toilet breaks.
I know it's wrong and I am feeling extremely lethargic. Planned to walk to the library or even go out for a short cycle but the anger is draining all the energy away.

The holiday is completely wasted this way. Not sure if it's PMS or frustrations from the no-calls I get after applying TONNES of jobs or simply, anger management issues.